- 4 years old -

Today you turn four, my lovable baby boy. Wasn’t it just a moment ago that I held you in my arms after the Dr.’s took you from my body? The second I saw your face and held you something in me said “I know you. I knew you’d be like this, I knew it”… for your heart matched mine. In the hospital the nurses against policy would let me hold you before I was to sleep late at night. When I was alone still recovering from surgery, you and I could just stare at one another for so long there in that dark room. I can remember every kick of your tiny feet within my belly as if it were yesterday. You were so big inside my tummy; pushing and stretching to make yourself room. Those hard kicks though tough, were joyous as I could feel you growing. Now I can watch you growing, becoming your own little person. Your sense of humor is a delight and contagious; your laughter gets Daddy every time, sending him into chuckles. I see my stubbornness in you too and it makes me giggle - with a touch of mommy annoyance. My baby, you recite lines from movies and shows just like me, your Dad and your Grandpa, its delectable. So many things I see in you are familiar and yet you are your own individual. We sit and listen with jubilation, to the sounds of you and your darling big brother in your rooms playing, wrestling, and being boys together. It makes me so happy to see how much you two love one another. You’re so strong and you make Daddy and me so proud with every song you sing, picture you color or book you love to share. I can’t help but feel weak with a tremendous sentimentality in your compassion for tiny bugs and how you always remember to say, “Excuse me.” Your constant need for cuddling and your wild, curly hair is all distinct to you baby, and we adore it. You are precious my love and I discover new things from you every single day. My dear Merek, you are pure joy. I wish everyone could see how at least once a day, you stop your activity so you can come over and gaze into my eyes. You smile awhile at me sweetly, as if to say, “I knew you’d be like this, mama.”

Happy Birthday baby, we love you so much.